to stab without asking(?)

In the final year, he realized
that whats in his skull
was never born here.
It was, but it despise the peninsula
so much for the heat and idiots
and made his tongue bent,
his keyboards clacking
to the ways of people who once fucked
this land like their whores.
But what in his skull
gives no shit
for it does not belong
to the laughter while raja lawak is on
or to the patrons of titles
which begins with the word 'suamiku'.
It has been cleansed from all the filth
of this small clan of racists,
even though these disgusting idiots
and the heat is all that he ever knew.

But in the final year too
he realize that whats in his skull
could never be able to resist the sedating weave 

of glides and trills ringing in it,
and all the possible ways for the lines

to tell him something more,

the more he said it to her.
Again and again.

"Menikam tidak bertanya
Bertanya tidak menikam"

or whatever the line is
and for once what in his skull
are glad that it is able to think
in the tongue of the idiots he despise.
And whats in his heart
would bend tongue
and clack keyboards
to the ways of the cursed peninsula.

Bertanya tidak menikam
Menikam tidak bertanya.