you are never alone

Football session was fun. And today i know a lot about people who i didn't really bother to know before. I was such a dick. I always forget their names and i have no effort to remember them. And after today i realize that if you give some time to know a person, you would always find their pleasant side and adding them to the people you connected to would make you more, er, human. Maybe due to my previous experience i find it always so hard for me to make new friends, in fact all my friends today is the people i never really plan to hang out with, and i never really had a plan. If i could remember most of my friendship are made of continuous interaction with a person, and i realize that having them around somehow make me happy, and i decided to keep them in my life. Hope they feel the same way about me.

We had a like, a session after practice today, which let us tell everyone a story about ourselves. I'm not a genius is social interaction but i suddenly kind of awaken this evening on the fact that, knowing people wont harm you, in fact that what makes you who you are today. You are not only learning from you're own experience, but also from your friends too. Sometimes what happen to them would make you chose a more safe route, or maybe you follow their step just to know if its really like how they describe it. Or maybe you can learn from what you would never experience and realize that everyone had their own kind of past, problems, backgrounds, fucked up stories and you would realize that everyone got their own dirty baggage. No one is emptier than anyone else. It makes you think that how each and every young people would fine their way out of daily struggles, and trying their best to create their foundation of who they are going to be as an adult. Whether your conflict involves broken family or just another love story, it doesn't matter cause that's what make you who you are, and everyone deserve a chance to be somebody. How beautiful life is.

And the most important thing is, you're life is not that fucked up. A lot of people out there who share kind of same story just like yours. And some much worse, but you realize that they still keep smiling when you feel like you're soooo down just because of some petty issues. Your life doesn't suck that much if you still have a place for you to sleep tonight. And look around. You have a lot of amazing people around you that would help you to be a better person. People around us is the greatest gift from god. Know them. Learn their stories, and if you have some time, be their friend it will never go to waste. Go out there and find where you belong, you would realize how different your life could be just by knowing some names, and not judging people before you even talk to them fucktard :)